About the Poem
When you love someone with so much of yourself, you not only experience one of the greatest joys of life, but you leave yourself vulnerable to what could possibly be one of the most painful experiences of your life. Should they leave you, pain and rage take over. This poem is about dealing with that and turning it into a positive experience.
The Wake Of My Recovery
|When you came into my life,
you breathed a new passion into my soul.
You gave me a reason to face
and conquer each day with purpose, confidence.
You excited my heart and my need to love-
and I did love . . . you.
My world grew bright with all that was you
and my everything became you.
But with no warning or backward glance
you blackened my existence with your retreat-
Into another's arms.
I felt I couldn't breathe without you.
You left me with no defense. No understanding.
Left to stumble and learn to live my life
alone, without your passion and "love. "
Time crawled when helping me to mend
my shattered soul.
Every step I made toward recovery filled
me with hate and distrust.
Gone was the hope and faith. Replaced
hollowly by fear and rage.
In the wake of my recovery I left many
broken hearts. As you left mine.
After many horrid mistakes I slowly came to
realize what I should have known before.
The passion we shared, the love we had-
wasn't because of you.
It was because of me.
When with you, I wasn't myself.
And I fell.
With my new realization I began a true
recovery- discovery of the beauty within me.
Much time later I can smile at our good times
and leave the pain felt behind me.
I have blossomed into myself. I'm surrounded
by those that truly love me.
Now that you see my newfound independence
and security, you want me again.
Suddenly you see that all you've ever hoped
and wished for is within me.
But with the pain you caused, you taught
me something else.
I love myself.
And you don't deserve me.