About the Poem
This poem is about me and my ex best friend. He was everything a person could ask for in a friend and more. I fell in love with him in no time. I think he always had an idea how I felt about him.
Then one day we started fooling around. I stopped it though because I was scared and because it was the first time I had done anything with a guy. He told me that since we were such good friends that I could trust him and that it would be ok. He told me he loved me. He promised me things would never change between us. So I went home and thought about it and decided that I loved him and this was my chance to be with him the way I had wanted to be for so long. I told him I was ready and how much it meant to me and all.
So we fooled around twice but never had sex. Then after the second time he started being mean to me. Finally he just stopped talking to me all together. I have no idea what went wrong with us. I have no idea what made him change his mind. What I do know is that I lost my best friend and I blame myself for not using my head. I also know that I will always love him even though he hurt me more then anyone has ever hurt me before. So I guess this is what the poem is about . . . how everything changed after just one night.
After That Night
|He said things would never change
He promised things would always be the same
He told me he loved me
He swore all this on our friendship
But after that night we had no friendship nor any love
After that night he said good- bye
After that night he said it never mattered
After that night he ignored me
After that night he left for good
It wasn't all my fault
It wasn't me who made all the mistakes
It wasn't me who turned away and left him standing
For I still loved him, It was he who made the choice
To leave me and all we shared after that night
He left me standing there, full of sadness and shame
He left me believing all his lies,
He left me to love him still after that night
Nothing was ever the same nor will it be
Because after that night not one bit of my love could make things right
I lost my best friend and my first love after that night.